No Dream is Too High by Buzz Aldrin

While working on a previous post about Aldrin’s struggle with depression and alcoholism, I found some quotes from this book. So, I decided to read it.

Go for your dreams

“One truth I have discovered for sure: When you believe that all things are possible and you are willing to work hard to accomplish your goals, you can achieve the next ‘impossible’ dream. No dream is too high!’ I feel limited by my tendency to cry when stressed out. I have cried at every job that I have ever held. Since my current job is almost a month long so far, this is really saying something. So, I am not sure how far I can get in life. If I could believe that I can do it even under stress, I know that I would be more successful.

Average people tend to think about merely maintaining the status quo; unsuccessful people think about simply surviving. Innovators and explorers think about what might be possible.” I have been working on thinking about how to get better at my job and make it better for my co-workers.

“Most people don’t like to move out of their comfort zones, but as we all know, change is inevitable. You can resist it and complain about it as an inconvenience, or you can regard change as your chance to do something new.” This quote reminds me of cognitive behavioral therapy which focuses on shifting one’s interpretation of an event. A lot of our emotions are influenced by how we interpret what is happening in our lives. So, shifting our thinking can help us to get our emotions under control.

“Life is a gift, and none of us has any guarantees about tomorrow, so don’t miss the opportunity to tell your friends and family members how much they mean to you.”

“All work is noble, if it is legal and ethical, so do your best, whether you are first, second, or last. Never lose an opportunity, a job, an election, a competition, or anything else because you were too lazy to give it your best effort.”

“I learned that asking for help was not a sign of weakness, but of true strength.”

“No matter who you are or how accomplished you may be, a time will come when you realize that you need help. Don’t be too proud or resistant to seeking help out of fear of embarrassment, reprisal, or other consequences.

“Seeking help when I was suffering with depression after returning from the Moon was a lifesaver for me-perhaps, literally.”

“Fortunately, I found excellent doctors and friends who encouraged me and helped me to recognize that I was not trapped by the past, that I could be responsible for my own decisions, and that my emotional health was much more important than my career.”

“Much more than talent or a pleasant personality, perseverance and persistence will open doors for you, if you simply keep working toward your goal and refuse to give up.”

“Nothing is impossible, but you must have a passion for what you want to do and a plan for where you want to go if you ever hope to get there.

“But the truth is, if you are afraid to fail, you will probably not accomplish much in life.”

“IF YOU WANT TO DO SOMETHING SIGNIFICANT, something noble, something that perhaps has never been done before, you must be willing to fail. And don’t be surprised or devastated when you do. It is not the end of the world, and untold numbers of people have experienced major failures and have come back from them, not as more successful, but also as better, stronger people.”

“But failure is not a sign of weakness. It is a sign that you are alive and growing.”

“Fear paralyzes in many ways, but especially if it keeps you from responding wisely and intelligently to challenges. The only way to overcome your fears is to face them head-on.”

5 Quotes From Anne Frank

Anne Frank (1929-1945) wrote a diary while hiding from the Nazis. I am amazed by how she managed to stay positive in the midst of the Holocaust. I want to be able to stay hopeful no matter what I see in the news and in my personal life like she was.

“Everyone has inside of him a piece of good news. The good news is that you don’t know how great you can be! How much you can love! What you can accomplish! And what your potential is! “

I have always believed that everyone has goodness in them. While I know that we also have an evil side (sinful side), I believe that God created us in His image.

How wonderful it is that nobody need wait a single moment before starting to improve the world.”

This mystifies me. I have always dreamed of improving this world.

“Don’t think of all the misery, but of all the beauty that still remains. In spite of everything, I still believe that people are really good at heart.”

While I believe that most people are kind and honest in most situations, I doubt I could believe that if I had experienced what she did.

“The best remedy for those who are afraid, lonely, or unhappy is to go outside, somewhere where they can be quiet, alone with the heavens, nature, and God. Because only then does one feel that all is as it should be and that God wishes to see people happy, amidst the simple beauty of nature.”

“I see the world gradually being turned into a wilderness. I hear the ever approaching thunder, which will destroy us too. I can feel the sufferings of millions and yet, if I look up into the heavens, I think that it will all come right, that this cruelty too will end, and that peace and tranquility will return again.”

While Ann Frank didn’t live to see the end of the war, we know that it did end. She had hope in the future.

These quotes are reminding me to hold onto hope in the midst of this strange world. My sister has commented that she feels like we are in a parallel universe while I feel like I am trapped in the Twilight Zone. Pandemic. War in Ukraine. Supply chain problems. Inflation. Overturning of Roe v. Wade. A huge divide here in the US. Mass shootings. My city’s (Waukesha) Christmas parade tragedy. Highland Park parade shooting. Uvalde school shooting.

I found the quotes in Women Know Everything by Karen Weekes.

Rock painting

I love to paint encouraging messages on rocks and leaving them around the city of Waukesha. I hope someone finds them and smiles.

If you find one, feel free to share a picture here, re-hide it or keep it.

Here are some of those rocks.

Buzz Aldrin and depression

Buzz Aldrin went into outer space and visited the moon. This is such an amazing achievement for him and mankind. Yet he struggled with depression and alcoholism. Here is an article about his life and struggles. He shared his struggles in an interview too.

This story reminds me of a Elijah (1 Kings chapter 18 and 19). He challenged the prophets of Baal to a challenge. He had them set up two altars with sacrificed bulls. He had Baals’ prophets pray for their god to burn the sacrificed bull up. Nothing happened. (Crickets sounds playing here) Then, he has the people pour water three times on the altar for our God. The water filled the trench around the altar. I suspect the wood and sacrifice was dripping wet. Then, he alone began to pray to God. “Then, the fire of the LORD fell and consumed the burnt sacrifice, and the wood and the stones and the dust, and it licked up the water that was in the trench (1 Kings 18:38).” Then, the people believed. A little later, Elijah prayed for rain causing a drought to end. This had to be a high point in his life like when Buzz Aldrin walked on the moon.

But, Elijah ran into death threats and found himself depressed. Buzz Aldrin developed depression and a substance disorder. Sometimes a great experience can lead to a stumble when things get tough again.

I am unemployed

I hate being unemployed. My Google maps app is full of manufacturing companies in Waukesha, Wisconsin. My phone’s predictive typing anticipates my past employers’ names.

One day, I was on hold to asked my former employer’s HR a question and received two phone calls. I never knew I could take a call while on a call on my landline. I have scheduled phone calls and on site visits a day later. It feels strange to schedule things at an instant. No working around a work schedule. Instead, I have to work around other calls and visits.

I hate the overthinking of every interview. Why did I say that? Why was I slouching sideways? Why do I stare at the ground when thinking?

I have only just begun week two! Two onsite interviews. Three temping agencies sharing my resume with clients. Posted resumes to Indeed, LinkedIn and Job Centers of Wisconsin.

As you can expect, my mood has been up and down too. A few sleepless nights near the end of the week. Hope at the start of the week.

I am spending more time with my friend, painting rocks and taking walks. I am attempting to return to reading a devotional and a Chicken Soup book. I have started leaving my painted rocks around town in the hopes that someone will smile when he/she finds it.

My painted rocks

Are there any other unemployed people working as a job seeker? What methods are you using to cope with the stress?

Support Ukraine event at St Luke’s

My painted rocks

I painted some rocks blue and yellow to show my support of Ukraine. Since Sophia has a Support Ukraine event at my church, St Luke’s I put my rocks near the church. I hope they make someone smile.

The event had a bake sale, silent auction, music and some dancing. I bought me some sweets and two sunflower pins.

Sunflower pins

During the program, I googled sunflowers and Ukraine. I discovered that sun flowers are the national flower of Ukraine. The article also described how they planted sun flowers at Chernobyl.

I tried to take some pictures but it was too dark and far from my seat to get good pictures.

God doesn’t want you to be alone

I can’t say wether God wants you to get married or not. But, He wants you to have people in your life who will encourage you when things get tough.

Jesus called the disciples to accompany Him. Simon and Andrew were brothers just like John and James, sons of Zebedee. I think Jesus knew that living with family members nearby to help and support His disciples would be important to His students. Later, Jesus sent the disciples out in pairs to share the good news.  After Jesus died, the apostles still traveled in pairs. In the fourth chapter of Acts, Peter and John preached together and were arrested together, When the apostles were released, they gathered together and prayed. Chapter six describes the selection of deacons to serve widows of the Church. God cares for His people through the community of God.

Since I hate getting up in the morning on the weekend, I keep skipping church. So, this article needs to be preached to me more to me than probably the two or three people who will read it.

God, thank You for my friends. I met most of them at work or church. Like my family members, my three friends share their life with me and I share mine with them. I know from reading how Jesus invited His disciples to live with Him that this is what you desire for me. Since I am an introvert, I limit my friends to small circle of close friends. Thank You for understanding my need for solitude to relax, read interesting news and do arts and crafts. Amen.

Charles Spurgeon had depression

Charles Surgeon was a famous English Baptist preacher. He preached at Metropolitan Tabernacle, founded Spurgeon’s College and started the Stockwell Orphanage. (1)

In 1856, a mass casualty event happened to him as he preached. He was preaching at Surrey Gardens Music Hall in London. The building was filled to overflowing. As he finished a prayer, a person in the crowd shouted, “Fire. The galleries are giving way!” Seven people died in the stampede while 28 we’re injured enough to be in critical condition. He struggled with this experience for a long time afterwards. (2)

Here are some quotes from Spurgeon about his experience of depression and other things.

1. I am the subject of depression so fearful that I hope none of you ever get to such extremes of wretchedness as I go to. But I always get back again by this—I know that I trust Christ. I have no reliance but in him, and if he falls, I shall fall with him. But if he does not, I shall not. I was amazed by how much depression effects every part of my life. I had trouble sleeping, very terrible attention span and crying all of the time. I hung on to Christ and begged for the strength to get through each day.

2. I often feel very grateful to God that I have undergone fearful depression. I know the borders of despair and the horrible brink of that gulf of darkness into which my feet have almost gone. But hundreds of times I have been able to give a helpful grip to brethren and sisters who have come into that same condition, which grip I could never have given if I had not known their deep despondency. This reminds me of the phrase “blessed to be a blessing.” Sometimes, God allows us to experience suffering so that we may reach out to others in similar circumstances.

Our sorrows are all, like ourselves, mortal…They come, but blessed be God, they also go. We suffer today, but we shall rejoice tomorrow. This quote is similar to the line from alcoholics anonymous which says “This too shall pass.” So, this is a great reminder that no matter how bad something is, it will end.

There is no learning sympathy except by suffering. It cannot be studied from a book, it must be written on the heart. I would much rather learn something from a book than through suffering. Yet, God uses our experiences to teach and prepare us for the future. Always work to learn from your mistakes and experiences. Please understand, I am not saying that God is beating you up to teach you something. I am saying that He will find a way to use that horrible experience without being the one to cause it.

Our infirmities become the black velvet on which the diamond of God’s love glitters all the more brightly.

I believe the holier a man becomes, the more he mourns over the unholiness which remains in him.

There is no secret of my heart which I would not pour into [the Lord’s] ear. There is no wish that might be deemed foolish or ambitious by others, which I would not communicate to him. God is a great listener. Maybe God’s choice not to speak to me much makes it easier to pour my heart out to him. It also helps that I know that He desires this.

Anxiety does not empty tomorrow of its sorrow-only today of its strength.”

Thanks for friends, co-workers and my health

This Thanksgiving post will be longer than usual because I missed last Thursday. So, I have combined last week and this week’s post.

Last weekend, I went out with a friend for breakfast. We discussed some female subjects that I am unwilling to share with others. It is nice to be able to talk about the private parts of our lives with friends. We also talked about politics. We are on opposite sides of the political parties. It was a nice reminder that we can disagree on politics and still be friends.

Many of my co-workers have helped me to learn my job. Earlier this month, one of my co-worker’s work contact ended. He taught me most of what I do in my current department and worked hard to coordinate the work of some other co-workers.

This week, I saw a post in one of my Facebook groups. The poster said that he/she had ran out of family and medical leave. She he/she lost his/her job. The comments section was full of other people facing similar situations. Since the group is for Covid-19 survivors, I knew that the poster was suffering with long hauler symptoms. I am thankful that my Covid-19 didn’t lead to long-term symptoms.

Quotes from hymns and songs

I love to use the words of songs as prayers and worship.

1. “Open your heart! Show mercy to all those in fear. We are called to be hope for the hopeless so hatred and blindness will be no more.” We are called (hymn 720 in Evangelical Lutheran Worship.) The refrain says, “We are called to act with justice, we are called to love tenderly; we are called to serve one another, to walk humbly with God.”

God, please guide me as I look for opportunities to love others, stand up for justice and serve my fellow man as this song says that You have called me to do.

This song reminds me of a Bible verse.

2. “Lord, use our voices, Lord, use our hands, Lord, use our lives, …All that we have, all that we are, all that we hope to be, we give to you…” We are an offering (692 in ELW)

I posted these words on the wall near my bed for years. I try to offer all of this to God but I fall short repeatedly.

3. “Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me. Cast me not away from your presence, and take not your Holy Spirit from me.” Create in Me a Clean Heart (185 in ELW)

This song is based on one of the Psalms.

4. “I am weak, and I need Thy strength and power to help me over my weakest hour…

Help me tread in the paths of righteousness; be my aid when Satan and sin oppress. I am putting all my trust in Thee..

I am lost, if you take your hand from me; I am blind, without Thy Light to see.”

The refrain says, “Lead me, guide me along the way; for if You lead me, I cannot stray; Lord, let me walk each day with Thee. Lead me, O Lord lead me.” Lead Me, Guide Me (ELW pg. 768)

5. Will you love the you you hide, if I but call your name? Will you quell the fear inside and never be the same? Will you use the faith you’ve found to reshape the world around, through my sight and touch and sound in you and you in me?

Will You Come and Follow Me (ELW 798)

6. When we are tested and wrestle alone, famished for bread when the world offers stone, nourish us, God, by your word and your way, food that sustains us by night and by day.

When in the desert we cry for relief, pleading for paths marked by certain belief, lift us to love you beyond sign and test, trusting your presence, our only true rest.

When we are tempted to barter our souls, reading the truth for the pow’r to control, teach us to worship and praise only you, seeking your will in the work that we do.

When we have struggled and searched through the night, sorting and sifting the wrong from the right, Savior, surround us with circles of care, angels of healing of hope, and of prayer.

When We Are Tested in the ACS page 922.